There were seasons where my silence said it all.Not only was I not praying, I didn’t even want to.
I wasn’t opening my Bible. I wasn’t showing up to church.
Honestly, I didn’t feel like God even wanted to hear from me.
And the crazy part?
I still believed in Him.
I just didn’t believe He still wanted me.
Not the broken version.
Not the one that kept messing up.
Not the one who knew what to do but didn’t have the strength to do it.
Not the one grieving and angry.
Not the one who was so hurt from the loss of her mother that she couldn’t even speak to God.
Personal condemnation almost made me forget grace.
Because shame will convince you that God changed His mind about you.
That your silence disqualified you.
That your distance canceled the calling.
But then He whispered to my spirit:
“You didn’t choose Me. I chose you.”
Honestly, that hit different.
Because even when I wasn’t speaking to Him, He was still covering me.
Even when I was running, He was still reaching.
Even when I was ignoring Him, He was still loving me. Intentionally.
REDEEMED is not about being worthy.
It’s about being wanted anyway.
Even in your silence, your slip-ups, your shame.......you’re still chosen.
Still seen.
Still called.
So don’t let your guilt be louder than His grace.
Don’t let what you did talk you out of what He already said.
You are not the exception to redemption.
This is your reminder that grace doesn’t give up.
God doesn’t change His mind.
And you’re still His.
Prayer:
God, thank You for never giving up on me.
Thank You for choosing me even when I questioned You, doubted You, avoided You, and even when I was too hurt to speak.
Remind me that You’re still near, still speaking, still calling me forward.
Not the perfect version of me, but the real me.
The grieving me. The angry me. The tired and unsure me.
Thank You for choosing me again and again.
Amen.